Mood Poisoning

Does any one else have mood poisoning or is it just me?

A Novel Coronavirus, Earthquakes, Murder Hornets, Giant Meteor 2020…

Lately it is starting to feel like every day brings a new disaster, tragedy, or heartbreak. Something to add to the stress, anxiety, and all-around crappy feeling.

“Let’s be clear. The planet is not in jeopardy. We are in jeopardy. We haven’t got the power to destroy the planet – or to save it. But we might have the power to save ourselves.”
― Michael Crichton, Jurassic Park

All these events — along with people’s reactions to them — is very overwhelming. Social media and the news are beginning to drain away what little energy and spark I have left after spending the last year in and out of doctors’ offices, hospitals, and all the treatments and life changes that followed my diagnosis.

Complaining to Mr. J isn’t helping, despite his best efforts to make me feel better. Even journaling has only managed to provide a small amount of relief and comfort. Reading… forget it, I’m too distracted with what is going on in the world around me.

I don’t have all the answers and while I wish I could save humanity and fix all our problems, I can’t. I also can’t live my life in a bubble… or can I?

While I continue to ponder life in a bubble — somewhat appealing being the introvert I am — I also miss things from my pre-pandemic life; recreational travel, dine-in cafes, perusing independent bookstores. Will they ever feel the same? Or will I be a ball of anxiety only seeing people as a viral threat to my health and my life? Until I can get past that… the small pleasures I crave will continue to remain elusive.

While all of this has made me realize I need a good cry (watching My Girl always starts the waterworks for me). I decided that I need to “save myself” and make a few changes to help me process and deal with… well, everything.

 

  • Slowly enjoy my coffee in the morning while reading a book, or writing in my diary about all the things that brought me joy or made me laugh the day before.
  • Only check social media once a day, and never right after waking up or before going to bed. Avoid the comment threads at ALL costs!
  • Read-only ONE mainstream news article on current affairs (or a summary of the daily news). Do NOT go tumbling down the ever-present negative news rabbit hole.
  • Pick Good News stories to read/watch.
  • Exercise, exercise, exercise, because like Elle Woods said, “Exercise gives you endorphins. Endorphins make you happy.”

 

So, there it is, my coping with reality plan. It’s manageable and already I am feeling better, less crappy than before.

 

What are you doing to handle and cope with all that is happening in 2020?

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